Magnetisim: Inspiration vs Writer's Block ✍🏾

This dynamic also accounts for the seeming disparities observed in the artistic creations of certain poets and writers when they are, for some reason separated from previous partners and take up a relationship with another. 

The effect is sometimes so obvious that they completely lose the brilliant touch that had characterized their work before their separation from a particular partner. 

 Afterwards, depending on the content of the new partner's brain, the others work is reduced to a ritual act, not as far as culture and technical or professional training are concerned, but as far as quality, sensitivity and depth. 

A man is not a creator in the world of the mind and needs to unite with a woman in order to create in that sphere. Conversely, a woman is not a creator in the instinctive realm and needs masculine power to become a creator in that sphere. 

My blogger(this very website) will highlight the aforementioned. 

I literally went 5+ years and wrote absolutely NOTHING which isn't like me.  Someone who carries around paper and colored pens everywhere I go. 

Yet, recently a particular  can gentleman stated the words: "be productive" and I wrote 3 entries in less than 24 hours. 

 Certain words (book excerpt in italics) have no meaning without a tangible example from one's own life.

Enteries: 

 10/24/11- Before #'s were exhanged

 11/9/12 - a week or so after Destiny was born 

06/30/13 - my sisters birthday 

During my pregnancy and after the birth of my daughter was a period of writer's block.

It wasn't until I was free from the individual, which is the other half of her procreation  did I begin to write again on

 05/28/18 - my father's birthday (28) 

How does someone literally suck the inspiration out of you?  

I've said several times

 it is very odd for me NOT to write about someone or life in general, even out of frustration. 

A random coworker (DV Tea)

 has an entry and not a

 5+ year relationship...

LITERALLY speaks for itself. 

I recently exchanged numbers

 with a different individual 

and have 16 entries in less than 3 months.

"Energy can either elevate each other to heaven, cast him or her into hell or keep them indefinitely in the most insipid purgatory"

 Interesting, isn't it.  

 Hindsight is: 2020

The Energy

Of Synergy 

Is Real! 

~*Blessings on Blessings*~

~*Perks of being a wallflower*~

 People secretly want to be the center of attention. They want others to notice: their style of dress, body structure, what they are knowledgeable upon, their possessions....etc.

 You learn more watching everyone fight over a few seconds in the spotlight. Then by idly waiting for your chance to shine. 

 Look at the people on your left: You see that group of females speaking and how one female is dominating the conversation. Although her friends are laughing or nodding in agreement. Notice whenever she looks away, the one laughing and nodding her head the hardest has a scornful expression.. wishing her friend would STFU so the attention can be on her. 

 Look to your right: You see that couple on a date. Notice, although the female seems to be intently listening to the male, she rolls her eyes to the side slightly, checking out others. Wondering, does anyone besides my S/O, who seldom compliments me, notice how beautiful I am? He doesn't make me feel wanted. 

 Look straight ahead: Notice the man wearing black and gray keeps brushing unseen lint off his clothes? If you look carefully, he's flicking his wrists, showing off his watch & ring... in an attempt to show others what he has, while luring in a female who believes his possessions are more valuable than he is. 

 Look to your left: A group of people are discussing worldly affairs. You have one individual, who has no idea WTF everyone else is talking about. So they laugh loudly at inappropriate moments. You'll have a female who'll laugh seductively, while touching someone's arm simultaneously sticking out her chest - knowingly. You have an individual who believes they are above such trivial conversations, yet stays to listen. Speaking negatively on 99% of the statements to show their intellectual contempt of others, and the brilliance they believe is lacking. 

 By watching others: you'll notice unseen hatred, the desire to be loved, low-self esteem, lack of insight, seduction, disgust, narcissism... etc.

 All of which you see, is unspoken. Yet speaks loudly, if you simply pay attention.

 When you’re at the forefront, you miss the importance of what you’re surrounded by. The individuals you interact with & watch… teach more about life, then you're capable of experiencing in a life span. 

 The observation of others, is an overlooked necessity.

Broom Nebula

Sublime Non-fiction

White pages

Blue lines 

It Is Written ✍🏾

Beyond 

The Red Margin

Of Configuration 

Conviction

Freedom Of Recollection

Not Surrounded By

The Vultures

Circling 

Looking For A Carcass

Seeking Personal Closure 

Alarmed

By

Forward Movement

Kismet - Testiment

Of

The Chosen 

Golden Fleece

Twin 

Archer Flames 

Male Ram's 

Trinity's Divinity 

Sacred Geometry

Libra's Scale

Balancing 

The Cosmos 

Forced The

Tilt 

Presence Is Felt

Earthly Vessels

Comaflouged 

Orion's Belt


© LaToya S. C. 

Vision Times Three

Where you're misguided

Another

Allows you to see

Lack of nonchalance 

Magnifies vision

Times three

Me, myself & eye

Collided with

You, me & she

The she that is her

Awakened

The universe never sleeps 

Tools are the keys

Locks intertwine 

Vortex 

Portal

Loopholes for growth

Staircase of hurdles 

Birthed through

Love

Of Self

Learning

Knowledge, Wisdom, Understanding

I am Earth

Eternal cycle

Of 

Life

Salvage - The Goddess

Dark Knight 

Of the soul 

Your pupils 

Highlight

Progress 

Metamorphosis - contortionist

🦋Butterfly🦋

Lioness

© LaToya S. C. 

DeKalb Avenue

Externally weeping

Internally bleeding out 

towards the surface

The First 48

For my September 28th

Contemplating Murder

How many reasons for your safety

I'd place myself in captivity

To set a ladybug free

🎶... Going out blasting, taking my enemies with me

And if not they scarred, so they will never forget me...🎶

Prodigy 

Mobb Deep

Coursing through my veins

Standing 

on a platform

On either side of me are trains

Taking passengers to 

Whatever to them

 is sacred.

Bemoaning such trivialities

Of the detours headed

To their final destination. 

And they somehow 

Believe this to be

Strife? 

If they only knew

The hardships of who

They were complaining to 

🎶...  THIS CAN'T BE LIFE... 🎶

Yet, what is normalcy...💭

Individuals
walking around in masks
Afraid of a virus, the media pirates
easily pass from person to person?


When the highest form
of human toxicity
Dwells within people
Everyday we see

Living
amongst us
Out in the open - corruption

Undetected
Agents
of hatred

Become them

© LaToya S. C. 

Music = Portals 🎧🎶

Deeply embedded self hatred has several men, not only dating outside of their race - but believing the black woman is their enemy, when they don't see their true reflection when they look in the mirror on a daily basis. 

The battle lies inwardly, due to a lack of self awareness & knowledge of self - they fight more harshly then the very entities responsible for institutionalized racism. 

When the oppressed become the oppressors. 

How does one emerge into this world through the wombs of their black mothers & spend the majority of their lives immersed in activities dismantling, in essence what gave them life? 

That's the elephant in the room no one wants to address. 

It's conversations that bring discomfort that offer the most insight. 

Do you understand your own inferiority complex? Or believe by sleeping with or having children by others, which is the exact opposite of yourself - will fill up the gaping hole in your being... 

 To understand the actions of other's, what they refuse to acknowledge while being on the shitty end of their stick, of blindness - is, ineffable. 

 I am dealing with YEARS of conditioning passed down from generation to generation. And it isn't just the men either.

Self hatred manifests itself differently in women. As they go above & beyond to alter their outwardly appearances attempting to mimic the very females, who if they REALLY paid attention desire to have all the physical attributes they were naturally born with. 

 An endless cut throat competition, when there are no winners. 

If you go into anything not knowing who you are, you already lost. 

You are someone else's plaything & they do to you as they please. 

 There is no respect in controlling others - why they go so hard to attack those in which they can't. 

 Music = portals 

 Always inspiring thoughts in a thinker. 🎧🎶 

 Artist: Royce Da 5'9

 Track 15: Perspective Skit 

 Album: The Allegory 

As above, so below. 

Before the words above were written, the words below were expressed a few hours prior to a male I hold in high regard. 

There are several sides to our thoughts, what we keep within & was is shared with others - in hopes to reach a threshold of understanding.... 

March 5, 2020 - 2:31am 

I need to state the following, not for a response, it is to express it to another living human being.

 I don't have the ability to listen or look at a particular podcast because of the color of his eyes. When excessive force was used on me by a bunch of male officers. A black Sargent with the same color eyes/complexion as said podcaster didn't care that I was hurt but to sign a medical waiver stating I didn't want to receive medical attention to protect his colleagues.

 A black male was assigned to the duel investigation when sexual trauma resurfaced with Destiny and it was disregarded/closed out.

 A black male, when the female that was hurting my daughter was finally arrested magically couldn't contact me for almost 48 hours so she was released.

 Whenever I come into work, black men feel the need to antagonize me & make a mockery of my domestic violence history.

 A black male that abused me for years has an order of protection against ME. My daughter lives with him and I've been separated from her for 17+ months. To add insult to all his injuries he currently receives more of my salary than I do.

 Last but certainly not least, I go to civil court this Friday and can potentially lose the home I've lived in for 11 years because other black males ensured something that could have been easily prevented has gone too far & they REFUSE to stop.

 It is a miracle I am not filled with hatred and despise all black men collectively.

 When it comes to hardships and repeated physical pain - a black males face is attached to it.

 So again, I thank you for sharing - but certain people remind me of the "we must protect black women" EMPTY RHETORIC.

 In my life, the black male has caused the most unbearable pain I have ever felt & I cannot bring myself to be subjected to meaningless commentary over the deceased & no one is fighting or helping those that are alive & still breathing. 

You're appreciated.       

One of my life's greatest reflections to delve into my own way of thinking, is a black male - always inspiring, even when we don't share the same experiences. 

♐ 

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