This Is Where I Stray……

The following consists of thoughts, I had moments ago. As I tried to formulate a way to tackle the unutterable. Clairvoyance came forth via poetic expression.

Purgatory – a place or condition of temporary punishment meant to cleanse those destined for heaven but not quite ready for it.

Mere definition

Can render a word

Meaningless

But, in my being I feel it.

Consume it, breathe it.

Conceive its nothingness,

Of being cast amongst the invisible

Slightly above

Stagnation…

An internal crossroad

Absorption’s

Plain stationed

Cannot

Move along any further

Or am I drifting into the unseen

Guiding me to believe

What cannot be put into words

Giving me flight

So I can be what I yearn

A lone bird

As I try to soar

I’m reminded of my cage

Circling thoughts

Gives me freedom

Yet, to them

I am enslaved.

Wondering in between

Mental states

Imagination’s the sleigh

As I roam through

Various compartments

Never dormant

I’m fully conscious

Aware

Riddles

Intertwined

With answers

Upon Layers……

© LaToya S. C.

I remember as an adolescent, I couldn’t fathom being an adult. It seemed light years ahead of me. Something I’d never mature, to be. I believe I was afraid of getting older because my imagination couldn’t conjure up anything. So I told myself it was an impossibility, I’d never live to see.

At this point in my life, inwardly, again I am that little girl.

I truly cannot see my future, or where I am going. I don’t know whether I should be elated, scared or disappointed.

Elated….. because to have no vision, is to be blind with a sense of realism. You’re not trapped inside of a picture trying to find unrealistic scenery. It seldom crosses one’s mind, what they’re looking for doesn’t exist or meant to be because their vision is limited.

Scared because if I cannot see it. How will it come to pass? Whatever “IT” is.

Disappointed because I usually have the answer for everything. This isn’t like me, yet it’s a part of my growth.

Currently, living the unseen, no direction of where I’m headed or supposed to be going.

This is my purgatory……

Preparing me

Journey to heaven.