Metempsychosis

Last

Year's

Past

I walked into a salon and told a beautician:

Can you cut 

ALL

 My hair off?

The instance 
Said words were spoken

I was greeted by several looks of

 Abstruseness 

Having to reassure
 I wasn't referring to a trim

Nor the desire for it to be curled or styled

Simply.....Cut....It....Off

Awaiting

 The

Irreversible

I overheard someone whisper: 

She probably just  broke up with her man

And wants a

"New look"

But BALD?!?!


Despite
The stylists 
Dismay


Amid


A Lion's Den of speculation
Riddled
With obtrude laughter


I went forth with my demand 


Within an hours time
What was once upon my head
Was placed

 In the palm of my hand....

~*October 6, 2010




I retrogressed infancy
Through the eradication of my
Hair follicles 


As with various stages in life


To grow
Is
Pain...


This is the first time
I willingly
Inflicted it on


Myself

The Journey Beings

During the first days/weeks on this path

Countless individuals asked me

WHY?!?!

Some would gawk at my head 

While those who felt inclined 

To touch my scalp

Would either cringe

Shake their head 

Or looked at me disgustedly 

I truly wasn't prepared
For the aforementioned
 Onslaught

 Certain persons stopped speaking to me
While  others avoided me in public
Embarrassed by my emergence

If I were to state: the reactions I received

From family & friends didn't make me self conscious

 Would be deceitful

Within 30-90 days of my decision

I was introduced 

To an aspect of my nature

Previously latent

Encumbered 

Striving to surpass

 The shallowness 

Of my ego 

It was imperative to delve beneath 

What I felt 

In the presence of others

 Finding the source 

That made me uncomfortably aware 

Of another's gaze

Ironically

It made the concept
Of a song
Frequently heard

Conceivable
By way of
 Endurance




Does the way I wear my hair 
Make me a better person?


Does the way I wear my hair 
Make me a better friend?


Does the way I wear my hair 
Determine my integrity?


I am expressing my creativity...

Intrinsically 

I am in tune 

With the depths of my being

Extrinsically
 I had to assimilate how I'm depicted
By the eye

 Unseen

Scrutinizing
Polar
Entities

I accessed understanding 

Of

The Sameness

Manipulated appearance(s)
The world deems
 Attractiveness 

Attesting 

 The differences of

Replication

 Inadvertently
Damaged

Deterrent

Cultivation....

In the process of my realization
Of painstakingly generational
Domestication

I was born again:

Seeing my outwardly reflection for the first time
Returning to a congenital state
Such as the date light first greeted my eyes

In innocence I cried


Bequest an unknown world
Breathing the breath of life's possibilities
And lessons learned through peril


 Indoctrinated to monstrosity
Immeasurable philosophies
Duplicitous monotony


Reciprocally

A revolutionary spirit
Spewing information
 Known to pierce


Betwixt
Reciprocity
Telling other's of their ancestral history


Edification - Awakening - Elevation
 Precedence towards
The affirmation:

Know Thyself


October sixth, two thousand ten
Signifies my
Rebirth


The demise of being a contradiction
Of my words
via my mane...


Exemplifying my stance
I'll reverberate the words
I used to begin:


As with various stages in life


To grow
Is 
Pain...


This is the first time
I willingly
Inflicted it on 


Myself:


Undeniable 


Maturation


Physical - Mental - Spiritual


Manifestation


Coily kinks
Are the paint
My hair is the canvas

I  am deprogrammed

© LaToya S. C.

 Indigenous...
 Not what the main stream
 Image is

Natural Hair
Is My
Heritage


***

Dedicated to :

Monique C.

Through your  silence, which is your strength

You've inspired me to collectively

Embrace self

 THANK YOU!

P.ositive E.nergy A.ctivates C.onstant E.levation 

Quiescence

I'm trying 

To decide

Which way to go

 I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere..... 

******

Along the odyssey of life
Certain individuals
Feel the need to be understood

As they yearn for understanding

Presuming
Voicing their concerns to another - as they vent
Will lead them towards a forgotten direction

Turning to a relative
 Stranger, significant other
Or close friend

For advisement - terms of guidance

Starting their story at the beginning
In a state of
Uncertainty

Asking:

What would you do if you were me?
Am I doing the right thing?
What should I believe?

Will I regret 
 Following what I can't see
But in my heart, I already know

There is no easy answer
So more than one person is asked
In an attempt to make sense out of aspects

That'll never be in their hands to control....

The following poem exemplifies
The susceptibility 
of spoken words

~~~~~~~~~

Better Left Unsaid

Written: October 13, 2003

How can one 

Utter words

Which in reality has no meaning

How can one 

Hold back

For silence, is misleading

Caught between a deaf ear & raging screaming.....

Sound

Silenced the pleading

The second it was told

No longer

A mystery

As you shattered the unknown

Gathered 

In spoken words

Emerged in multi tones

No depth

In understanding

As you planned it

For now 

You are bare

Stripped down to nakedness

In your thought(s)

You needed

To share

Misinterpretation

To stares

Vulnerable to care

What was hoped 

To accomplish

Was remotely demolished

An unplanned lesson was learned:

The words you speak entrap you

To the ears in which

They're heard.

© LaToya S. C.

Mental Bondage

Validity

Smidgen of Truth

Or Empty Rhetoric? 

Mental Bondage Is Invisible Violence 

‎"The person who is in mental bondage will be "self-contained" Not only will that person fail to challenge beliefs and patters of thought which control him, he will defend and protect those beliefs and patterns of thought virtually with all his last dying effort." - Asa G. Hilliard

Know Thy Self'

A person who knows not
And knows not that they know not
Is foolish - disregard them

A person who knows not
And knows that they know not
Is simple - teach them

A person who knows not
And believes that they know
Is dangerous - avoid them

A person who knows
And knows not what they know
Is asleep - awaken them

A person who knows
and knows that they know
Is wise - follow them

All of these persons reside in you
Know thyself

Cinderella Complex

I marvel at the contradiction
Of  a female who'll boast of her
"Independence"
Yet, disgruntled
She hasn't found a man in which she is
Dependent.


Hiding behind
The guise of strength
Torn between emotions
Forlorn previous relationships
Believing it's besieged their:

Unconscious
Secretions
Sending off

Pheromones

Despite their 'accomplishments'

The desire to be taken care of
 Triumphs all

*****

"Show me a socially empowered woman; and I'll show you a threat, because she chooses to control her own passions" ~*Gary Null 91.5fm

While listening to Gary Null’s show; towards the end of the program, Gary Null briefly mentioned the "Cinderella Complex". As I Chuckled nodding my head in agreement, the first word that popped into my mind was opportunist.

Opportunist- A) One who takes advantage of any opportunity to achieve an end, often with no regard for principles or consequences. B) A person who takes advantage of any circumstance which will help him personally.

Due to the "Cinderella Complex"

Cinderella Complex

"The Cinderella Complex was first described by Colette Dowling, who wrote a book on women’s fear of independence as an unconscious desire to be taken care of by others, based primarily on a fear of being independent."

"The complex is named after the fairy tale character Cinderella, popularized by the Disney movie of the same name. It is based on the idea of women that the story portrays, as being beautiful, graceful and polite but who cannot be independent characters themselves, and who must be rescued by an outside force, usually a man (e.g. the prince)."

Most women will forever be the pawn of an opportunist, as they are driven strictly by emotions.

Emotion- A mental state that arises spontaneously rather than through conscious effort and is often accompanies by physiological changes.

Emotions cloud reason (Logic). As the definition sited above "it is a state outside conscious effort".

Due to lack of logic (simplistic comprehension) women (more so than men) like to play tit for tat, aka "checkers". While others, have a strategy/reason for what they do "Chess".

After speaking with a particular female who severely suffers from the "Cinderella Complex". As a "woman" she only saw the negative attributes in what's previously written. A perspective outside the threshold of her conciousness, due to her rose tinted, perception of life. Another’s lack of understanding will never stop me from voicing my thoughts. Although I know, you can’t always shine a light, giving insight to those who are unwilling to accept a brightness that is often blinding, in its honesty...... certain things NEED to be said.

Everyone in life is an opportunist, EVERYONE (More than others, are conniving). Just as EVERYONE has been a pawn (another person’s victim to achieve personal gain). We all play a different role (chessman) in other people’s strategy.

There are 6 Pieces in chess

Pawn- Except on its first move, a pawn may only move one square forward at a time. Pawns can never move backwards.

Knight- Moves in an L shape in any direction. The Knight is the only piece whose journey is not impeded by other pieces on the board. If its destination square is vacant, it may jump over pieces in its way.

Bishop- Moves diagonally any number of squares, forwards or backwards as long as its path is not blocked by other pieces.

Rook (Castle)- Moves horizontally and vertically any number of squares, forwards or backwards.

Queen- Is the most powerful piece on the board. This is because it can control more squares than any other chessman. It moves straight forward, backwards or diagonally any number of squares as long as its path is not blocked by other pieces.

King- Is the most important piece on the chessboard. It can never be captured and if it’s in danger it must be made safe immediately. If it is not possible to make the king safe then the game is lost.

"The King" ~*"Always protect your investment"

"The Bishop, The Rook" ~* "The formula of the con is quite simple – you seduce people by their own greed.

"The Knight" ~* The trick is to know when you’re the latter, so you can become the former."

"The Pawn"~* In every game and con there is always an opponent and there is always a victim, the more control the victim thinks he has, the less control he actually has."

"The Queen" ~* If you change the rules on what controls you,you will change the rules on what you can control."

"Strategy" ~* Inside an environment one can control. The bigger the environment, the easier the control ... so the opponent simply distracts their victim by getting them consumed with their own consumption."

The game of chess is presented as a vantage point, to recognize different strategies. Giving one a glimpse of the maneuvers and tactics used, to achieve a desired end. As I’ve stated earlier we all play a different role in other peoples "game/life".

At work you might be the Pawn.

In a relationship, the Bishop/Rook.

To friends and family, the Knight.

When it comes to your perception, actions and reactions you must be the Queen.

As your quality and way of life is always King.

When it pertains to yourself you should always be the "Queen". One must memorize how each piece operates. As it is essential, that you understand and P.Y.P. "Play Your Position" (accordingly).

Empower yourself, and recognize your worth. It is your own way of thinking that victimizes you into constantly playing the role of a disillusioned pawn. Due to your need to be magically rescued, taken care of and pampered by someone other than yourself. Singles you out as; an easy target.

And PLEASEEEEE!!! read something other than a ghetto novel with a "happily ever after ending". Nothing in life is instantaneously achieved without effort. Life isn’t a fairy tale. You aren’t going to meet the perfect man that’s going to fall in love with you at first glance, fly you off to the Bahamas’, and move you out the "hood". Lavish you with diamonds, furs, clothes, and cars. Leaving everyone around you (preferably other women) jealous because they aren’t you…..

Aren’t you tired of the same preconceived, recurring DREAM????

Until you give up this self perpetuated "Cinderella Complex"  the stench of neediness will seep through your pores. You’ll continuously be surpassed by everyone around you. As you chose to elect being "envied" and "taken care of" as your strategy.

For your own sake understand how "Life imitates chess"……….

On that note I will end, how I started:

"Show me a socially empowered woman; and I’ll show you a threat, because she chooses to control her own passions"

And why is this woman a threat?
Because in life; people want to be able to control the outcome of your actions….