Purple Ribbon

Coupon; couldn't handle it? 

 Discounted  

The value of others 

Political campaigners 

 Imagining 

 Clipped off 

 Pieces of papers

 Self inflicted caper 

 Bystanders 

 Caught the vapors 

 Red & Blue 

 Was supposed to be

  Purple's savor? 

 Mixed 

 Together 

 Hand-i-caps 

 Napalm 

 Societal commonalities 

 Turned venomous cancer

 Danger! 

 When your go to 

 Is estranged from 

 Connectedness 

 Respite 

 Cannot climb up off the back

 Of a once battered woman 

 Stagnation

 Is your 

 Mobility 

 Prices higher

 Than your 

 Limitations can reach 

 Behold A Pale Horse 

 William Copper 

Tried 

 To teach 

 Cointelpro - Is all 

Some of 

My people know 

 Merely scratching the surface 

 Pawns 

 To a 

 Pauper

 Knights 

 For 

 Scavengers 

 Bishops 

 Towards 

 Corruption 

 Rooks 

 Believing they're 

 The castle

 No man's land

 Undesirable King 

Isn't equipped to battle

Underestimated
Queen
Dismantles

 Zebras
Run free
Without a saddle.

© LaToya S. C. 

Bruises Without Scars

What is more powerful

what is seen visibly 

or what is beneath the surface.

The picture below is a depiction

of Genocide & Brutality in America.

Violence that is perpetually

more deadly and ignored. 

We focus upon the slain, those who do not get to go home and tell their side of the story.

We focus upon the tears and the horror of those who are permanently silenced & the living has to be their voice from beyond the grave.

Moments ago while conversing with my son he mentioned the name of a someone he follows (don't remember the name) and he described an innocent with police & afterwards (not saying it was the main culprit) lead to suicide.

I automatically thought of Kalief  Browder... While speaking, I started to cry for two young men I do not know & realized a portion of my own unvoiced pain.

For me, for more than a year people have inadvertently made me feel as if I do not matter.

After an incident that occurred on Monday January 6, 2020 - the aforementioned was escalated by physical violence in the presence of multiple witnesses. As if to reinforce, I am insignificant.

I have to fight with what is going on outside of me and what is going on underneath the surface.

I am trying to write right now & my body is attempting to shut itself down to block out the pain - which I know is a form of protection. Yet I cannot afford to slip into the darkness because there is no one here to pull me out.

To be treated like an animal.

thrown around, yelled at, humiliated, with brutal force and made to walk past a crowd of bystanders because someone wants to make you feel as if you don't matter. Wants to push you to your breaking point, wants what they feel for you to be more powerful than what you feel towards yourself.

When the outside word doesn't match with what is felt within can cause confusion.

To constantly have to remind yourself what is reality, to constantly take pictures to remind yourself what day it is, where you are at because repeated trauma affects the memory - be in a constant state of fear, to be terrorized over and over and it just keeps progressing and there is no other reasoning but you're a woman and you're black in America.

I am have internal bleeding, no one can see.

I have scars that aren't allowed to heal because newer ones are constantly added.

Every day I awaken I have to find a reason to keep going forward, not to give up and echo what the outside world is saying to me.

I am struggling & writing is my only outlet.

Today is only day 3.

I keep seeing their faces in my mind... Keep seeing the blurred faces in front of me without my glasses on.. I can feel myself being pressed to the ground and being yelled at to get up... can feel metal cutting into my wrists.. hands behind my back not even able to scratch my nose or sit comfortably.

Why do I have these memories on top of everything else I am enduring?

I don't know if I am processing my experience correctly or if as the days go by the memories will intensify.

I think the worse of it all, was getting inside of an elevator and told to face a wall with my hands behind my back.

Everyday I leave my home and exit it, I have to get in an elevator and look at the triangle corner and see the inside of the gray elevator and the dim light above my head and feel myself going downward.

Something so simple has traveled outside of a building with me - a reminder and as I said it's only day 3.

I cannot avoid taking the elevator or take the steps because I don't want a reminder - so I have to just go through it.

How does one deal with a new traumatic experience and fighting to get back their daughter?

This is beyond anyones breaking point & I don't know if I will crack or not.

I speak to my son because I feel the darkness over my shoulder - telling me I don't matter. That's why the court officer kept saying it over and over he must have known I would hear his voice in my head saying - no one cares about me, my case or what I am writing.

Right now, I just heard him say no one cares what you're writing and his face flashed before my eyes... knowing eventually I will have to see him again & he doesn't deserves space in my mind/thoughts.

When I leave work have to get inside of the elevator and fight off the memory of being treated less than a human being. Trying not to look at the triangle corner where I was told to look and place my head.... going downward.

 I want to cry but I have to call my daughter soon, so even my tears have to be placed on a schedule.

I have to protect everyone else by not feeling my own pain.

I will try to write again later....

I was guided to write, as a form of release - so I did.

Thank you for making me cry August....

I love you until the essence of no return.

Never Shop Hungry

 "Never Make A Deal When You're Desperate"

Individuals will back you into a corner of desperation believing you'll settle for anything or meager crumbs thrown your way.

Example: send several rejection letters for an apartment, so when the one we actually want her to move into comes along - due to the hunger for change & desperation to get out of her environment she will accept anything blindly.

Purposely creating hunger pangs, not knowing people who come from nothing never died because of missing a few meals.

Many also overlook a peron's integrity.

Even in desperation, who would accept a handout from a hand already used to plug a knife in their back?

Countless individuals allowed venom to be spit in their ears... ingested poison - expecting the other person to die.

Miscellaneous thought of the day 💭

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Earlier this evening I wrote an entry before this one (IamHer7) - both of them combined  exemplifies the workings of the universe.

I referenced  the word desperation referring to others from  my perspective. 

Not too long ago, while watching a podcast it was stated: 

"Never shop hungry/make a deal out of desperation." 

Allowing me to see myself, out of the eyes  of other's  - how I was automatically perceived  under created circumstances.

Two sides of the same coin.

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It is imperative to see life from all angles.

Assumptions are costly..   

Of believing those in your corner have your best interest at heart.

Behaving in unscrupulous manners to get something for nothing - in the end, paying the highest price.

"Circumstances do not make the man they reveal him to himself"

Enclosing:

"Truth crushed to the earth WILL rise again."

~* Poeticparable ✍🏾

Iamher7

Lack of 

Personal 

Access

Technologically 

Formidable 

Tactics 

Insinuations 

via

Juvenile verbage

Transparent thieves 

Consumed - insatiable 

Desire to succeed 

Unconscious greed 

Believing any

Imagery to be a

Tool

Expired 

Due to 

Lack of patience 

Forethought & overuse 

Targeted 

Abundance of

Confused 

Admirers 

On the opposite 

End of

Limerence

Scrolling to glimpse 

Purposely
Selected 

Words:

"But did you die though"... 

Attempting 

To garner 

A mention?

Let's

Momentarily 

Oblige

PAUSE ⏸

Giving

Dilapidated souls

Attention 

Acknowledge 

Their
Desperation 

Indicative upbringing 

As adults  - can no longer
Blame those
Who improperly raised you

Parasites 

Breed 

Leeches 

Communal cesspools

Nothing

Seperating us

But 

Awareness

Cognitive Dissonance
Married
Incubated savagery

Birth of a Nation

Seven
Deadly
Sins 

Clairvoyant 

Universal choices 

Selectively chosen

Hierarchy Ten

© LaToya S. C. 

Sunrise - Sunset

One-A-Day 

Crossover

 Fade 

Away

 Negates 

 Translucent 

Shades Of 

Praise 

 Beginners Grace 

 Dilapidated Trampoline 

 To 

Reach 

 Marksmen 

 Shattered 

 Screen 

 Golden Fleece 

 The 

Egotistical

 Beseeched 

 An Oracle's

 Earthly 

 Tools 

 Humanity Breed's 

 Falsified

 Molecules 

 Structured 

 Diabolical 

 Misuse 

 Featured

 An 

Owl 

Lack Of Belief 

 Peasants 

 Of A 

Phoenix 

 Man Made 

Caste 

System 

 Unwritten 

 Earthly 

 Agreements 

 Olympians Vs Sphinxes

 Inconclusive 

 Not

 Reusable 

 Cause & Effect

 Cannot 

 Undo 

 Whiskers
 Of A
 Broom

 Floors
Mopped
Saloon

 Ghastly Goons
 Fathered
 Bastardized Gallantry

 Menace
 Of
 Societies

 Pariahs
 Freedom Fighters
 Duality

 Soiled Hands
 Uncleanliness
 Greed

 Demise

 The Uncivilized
Suicide
 Resides

 In
 Their
 Choices

 Poorly Executed

 Life
 Aborts
 Sin

 Patience

Metaphysical Gestation


 Fright
 Is
 Sensed

 Stench
 Of Impending
 Last Breath

 Sunrise - Sunset

 Rebirth


 Uprising


 Collision
 With
 The Clouds

 Finally:

 I Am Flying!

© LaToya S. C.

Sophist

Fallacies Perpetuated

Stagnation 

Vestibule Towards  Elevation 

Residual Plateau

Convoluted Desecration 

Obtuse Ventriloquist

Sophist

Conniving 

Derelict 

Lacking Consciousness 

Plots Switch 

Thickening 

Cosmic Causation 

Decrepit Celestial 

Programming 

Verbage Singular

Pieced Together 

Collectively

 In Certain Instances

 More Complex 

 Separately 

 Left To Be 

 Breathe

 Roots

 Of A 

Beech Tree 

 Already Serene

 Foreseeable 

 Manifestations 

 Present 

 Every Breath 

 Taken 

 Sacredness 

 Vibrations Sporadic

 Elastic 

 Abstract 

 Enigmatic Apparatus 

 Haphazardly

 Grasped 

 Laughter Is 

A Rebels 

 Applause 

 Needn't 

 Be 

Appeased 

 Judged 

 By 

Pupils

 In A World 

With A Cataracts 

 Gleam 

 Critique 

 The Harshest Illusionists 

 Fraudulent Conclusions 

 Enshrouded   

© LaToya S. C.

Black Gold

Knowledge
must be revisited throughout the course of your life
as changes in circumstance force you to adapt its direction. 

Your whole life is a kind of apprenticeship to which you apply your learning skills.

Everything
that happens to you is a form of instruction
if you pay attention.

The creativity that you gain in learning a skill so deeply
must be constantly refreshed,
as you keep forcing your mind back to a state of openness. 

A journey
with twists and turns
rather than a straight line. 

Anything that is alive is in a continual state of change and movement.
The moment that you rest, thinking you have attained the level you desire,
a part of your mind enters a phase of decay...

Cyclops-Juggernaut

Aset
The
Goddess

Warrior Eclipsing The Sun

Conjuring
The Imperial
Thoth

Twin Flames Merge Becoming One

Forged Through Hardships
Meant To Stifle
Immortality

Apostle

Conundrum
Of
Duality 

Bystanders

Awaiting The Crack That Will Shatter

An Impenetrable Undertaking

Slightly Wavering

Even When Knocked Down

The View From Below As One Looks Up

Gives Clearance

Cannot
Copyright
The Mold

Of  That Which Is Priceless

What I Embody
Cannot Be Sold
To The Unconscious

Ostracized - Discernment

Wombman

Sister
Mother
Daughter

Walk With Purpose

© LaToya S. C. 

When Something's Suffered Damage
And Has A History
It Becomes Sublime

Fill The Broken With Gold
And Marvel At The Beauty
Of Their Scars

Had To Find A New Approach To An Old Dream... 

P. ositive 
E. nergy 
A. ctivates
 C. onstant 
E. levation 

Unsolved Equilibrium

Once: is a mistake

                               Twice: a habit 

                                                       Three times: a pattern...

In an effort to explain 

the intricacies of life to my son, 

I gave an example of repeated occurrences. 

Said occurrences involve different individuals, yet followed the same pattern. 

I’m not an illustrator, 

but knew in order to convey my sentiments 

I had to speak in a language as an adolescent  he’d understand. 

Therefore, I drew 3 set of circles

three times. 

The 1^st set, everyone was neutral  😶😶😶

The 2^nd set,  two are harmonious which filled the other with disdain 😁😁😡

The 3^rd set, two where filled with discord making the other gleeful 😡😡😀

Stating: If you're not mindful, 

due to the company you keep or a singular person in your circumference, 

neutrality has the propensity to manifest into emotional poison. 

Where two (or more) individuals are at odds unnecessarily, for the simple fact it brings another joy. Those who implement adversity towards the unsuspecting - reverberates vitality and sustains their existence.

Again, I am not an illustrator & can be long winded

so after I finished speaking I asked my 1st born 

to draw me a picture of what I just said & he produced the following picture & words.

Two things 

Need to oppose each other

In order to stay

Alive... 

The boy is yelling & angry 
because he's usually under pressure.  Nor does he like to be confronted.

The mask at the top is using their experience to control him and tell him what to do. 
Using negative emotions for manipulation.

 The woman is screaming due to stress and sadness. 
She is being controlled by her anger. 

She see’s her son being controlled by the mask
 but the son doesn’t know it. 

The figure hovering above is anonymous 

It equates Anger and sadness meshed together. 

The masked figure is feeling what they’re both feeling, but doesn’t know how to show it. 

The figurine is miserable because they are feeling so many things at once; in not knowing how to deal with their emotions they make everyone else’s life miserable. 

The mask appears to be laughing at them both

 but if you look closely

 you can see that it is crying... 

Unsolved Equilibrium. 

Let me pray to keep you from

the perils that will surely come

see life for you my prince has just begun.

I thank you 

for choosing me

to come through unto life to be....

Amazingly,

in an attempt to teach

the roles were reversed and I was reverted into a student. 

Youth 

isn't wasted on the young 

they understand far better than most give them credit for.

© LaToyAugust

Art-2-Facts

There's one thing you will 
Never 

Be able to get back: 

Your innocence.

Keep in mind 
It has nothing to do with 
Ignorance or Naïveté...

The Cusp 

Of 

Waking Up

Reawakening 

Innate Urge 

To 

Self Destruct 

 Demolition Of Psychological Chains

A Relic 

Can Only 

Sustain

Through Adaptation 

An Onslaught 

Of
Able & Cain

Navigating Goliath's Terrain

Manifestation 

Surpasses 

The Physical Plane

Spiritually Ordained

Engulfed 

In Regurgitated 

Pain

Mentally 

Clears A Pathway

Towards The Highest Elevation 

Reawakening 

Annihilation 

Of 

Societal Constraints

Surrounded By The Morally Corrupt

Turning
A
Blind Eye

Willfully
Forcing Those With Vision

To Adjust

Their Perception With The Mass Majority

Provocations Poorly

Will No Longer Ignore
Thee

Reemergence 
Of What Was Haphazardly
 Buried

ME

Indigo's Child
Lightworker
 Beeseech

Shell Casings Of A Starseed

© LaToya S. C.

Q: What are the most important questions to ask?

A: More important than the question itself is the sincerity behind the inquiry. 

If the motive behind the question is than a sincere pursuit of Truth,

there is no reason to even answer.


The most important answers one will receive anyway 

are the things they do not want to hear.

Before asking serious questions,

one must be serious

in their life approach. 

Your Innocence 

Was A Beautiful 

Gift

But, The Paradox

Was That You Never Knew

You Had It... 

Deuces Wild

Chess pieces represent the forces of nature 

Light and Dark

Good and Evil

Opposing forces 

which permit the manifestation of all things material 

Each piece represents a different position, power and possibility in the game of life. 

I have spent hours conversing with anyone who is privy to the game of chess

and the many ways in which it imitates the essence of livelihood. 

Believing the:

                                     Pawn

                                               Knight

                                                         Bishop

                                                                    Rook

                                                                             King

                                                                                     Queen

was the best strategic analogy

predicating the dynamics

of social interaction. 

The King:
This is the piece the whole game revolves around and represents our deeper self, the divine spark within us. And yet, it is the least powerful piece in terms of ability to move about the board. It can only take one step at a time, though it can travel squarely or triangularly.

The Queen:

This is the most powerful piece on the board having unlimited movement in any of the eight directions. She is the power of Nature, reflecting the light of the King, possessing unlimited potential.

The Bishop:

These pieces remain upon their own color throughout the game and can only move diagonally. One bishop travels the path of the head and the other enjoins the path of the heart.

The Knight:

The Knight represents the awakening of the spiritual initiate acting in the world. It moves by leaps of intuition along the sides of a right triangle. It alternates between white and black squares with each move, therefore, engaging the head and heart in each action. Only a knight or a pawn can initiate the first move of the game. The knight can make a move that even the Queen cannot make.

The Rook:

These are the only two pieces permitted to move strictly along straight lines in the four cardinal directions. They represent our physical power to act in concert with the world's material structures.

Pawns:

Pawns represent ordinary men and women attempting to move across the board of life toward eventual initiation into union with the divine. The pawn utilizes only the simplest interactions with other pieces and does not recognize the divine forces behind its life. It only moves one step at a time. Always forward, never backward. It can move either straight ahead when challenged, or diagonally, showing that it can utilize the head or heart in it's progress. If the pawn gets far enough to triumph over life's trials and adventures, to the eighth square of the opposing side, it achieves a higher state. At this point it can transform into any piece is desires. Usually the pawn is made a queen and thus becomes a co-creator. Though many a wise man has chosen to become a knight and won a definitive victory as a result. 

http://www.enchantedmind.com/html/creativity/techniques/creative_chess.html

                                        

Whether in the midst of debate, blog entries, or retelling a quote of the day  

I've referenced the movie 'Revolver' by Guy Ritchie, to emphasize 

a specific point I was attempting to praise. 

"There is something about yourself that you don't know. 

Something that you will deny even exists, 

until it's too late to do anything about it. 

It's the only reason you get up in the morning. 

The only reason you suffer the shitty boss, the blood, the sweat

and the tears. 

This is because you want people to know how 

good, attractive, generous, funny, wild and clever you really are. 

Fear or revere me, but please, think I'm special. 

We share an addiction. 

We're approval junkies."

Distract
 by getting them consumed 
with their own consumption...

"The bigger the trick & the older the trick, 
the easier it is to pull, 
because --

1. They think it can't be that old
2. They think it can't be that big

... for so many people to have fallen for it."

During my relentless voyage to obtain respective from the true and living

I encountered an individual who wasn't knowledgeable 

nor divulged in the dynamics of the aforementioned.

I was courteously introduced 

to a pastime I never sought to comprehend.

The entity of 

Poker.

For the 1st time in my years of study, 

my lack of understanding forced me

To re-decipher the phrase:

Growth
for the sake of growth
is the ideology of the cancer cell. 

When one is 'consumed with their own consumption' 

is to lose sight of the goal(s) and get stuck in the process 

which checkmates potential. 

Or as one of my favorite quotes indicate:

You cannot 

see the picture, 

when you're inside the frame. 

People tell others who they are 

and what cards they hold 

by their actions.

The game is a series of one decision after another, 

and to make these decisions in haste and without all the facts 

can be very devastating to one’s well-being.

The individuals in the game are probably the most crucial factor. Knowing the players, including yourself, is the most important thing you can do. Each player is different and unique. Each one has a different personality and, therefore, requires different treatment. 

Knowing the people can turn a loss into a win.

Each person has their own motive for being in the game. You must identify these motives and learn to recognize these motives. This will tell you who these people are and guide you in your decisions. The best source of information about these players is your own intuition and experience. 

Be aware 

a person’s motives can change 

as the game continues. 

Constant awareness on your part is necessary. 

For you to do this,

you must first clear yourself

of your own selfish motives. 

Your own selfish motives will distort your view of others, and you will find yourself making incorrect judgments of them. If you bring the seven deadly sins with you to the game or develop any of these motives during the game, your mind will close. You will be unable to focus on the game and the other people. You will be blind to the philosophy of the game and the motives of others.

Why is it important to know other people’s motives?”

This is to tell you what cards the other players are holding and help you make healthy choices about your own method of play. The real danger is the selfish motives. Be they in other people or us. If they are in us, they blind us. If they are in others, we can fall into their traps.

The players are not our enemies, only their motives.

I don’t understand why 

we should even stay in the game 

with people who have selfish motives...

Without the other people, there would be no game, we need each and every one of them. The more players, the more prosperity there is for everyone. 

We should treat each person as if they were the most important person in the world. First of all, to them they are. Second, because they are the ones that contribute to our own prosperity. We are dependent on them for our needs and wants. Without other people, we can go home empty-handed.

We must learn to love even the most disgusting person. This is not easy to do, and none of us can do it all the time. Nevertheless, this is a goal we must strive for. Neither can we always be free of selfish motives. This also is a process and requires work each day. We only need to improve from where we were yesterday.

Loving a person doesn’t mean we are to become their slaves or bend to their selfish motives. It means accepting them as human beings suffering from lack of knowledge. We are all sick to some degree, and it’s only the degrees that separate us.

We love them when we do not let them trap us with their selfish motives because we are showing them their way does not work. Many people will continue to play their game until it doesn’t work anymore and will not change until they are shown this. 

By showing them 

their game no longer works, 

we are actually helping them

 to find a better way.

After a singular conversation
I delved into the components
of a 52 deck:

                                           Clubs

                                                         Hearts

                                                                       Diamonds

                                                                                          Spades

 Unlike chess, in which
the pieces/moves are fixed.

With poker every hand dealt varies.

A game of chance where the luck of the draw coexists.

One has to work with what they're given

as the tables constantly turn. 

Another's inability 

to manage what is within the palm of their hand

can be to your detriment or ascendance. 

Wearing a poker face  

to sway the odds towards favor - one can make an opponent believe 

whatever their mind wants them to perceive. 

In an attempt 

to call another's bluff 

the cards can be stacked 

against anyone as they're laid 

upon life's table. 

                                                                                             Mannerisms

                                                         Characteristic traits

                                  Mentalities

All eyes 

focusing upon 

the unseen

to out maneuver...

You Can Only Get Smarter 

By Playing 

A Smarter Opponent

Freedom and Responsibility
Are Twins
Not Enemies