Melodic Tapestry: 2013

For as long as I can remember
Whenever endurance is ineffable

Comprehension always comes

In the form of a quote.

A few hours after waking up

The following words

Ricocheted through my mind.

"One of the hardest things in life
Is having words in your heart
You can't utter"

For countless individuals

Dealing with the death of a loved one

Is unbearable, due to finality.

For me, knowing an individual is alive

And you cannot see or speak with them

Is the greatest pain.

The following poem is an expression of said turmoil.

Until We Meet Again... (Dedicated To My Older Sister)

Written: January 15, 2007

Aside From Our Mother
You Were My Love In Life
As I Look Back Laughing
Remember
The Battles We Had With
GI-Joe, Wrestling Men & Transformers
Are The Toys We Played With
Before Mom Had Our Little Brother

Remember
Playing She-Ra & He-Man
Running Around The House Fighting
Skeletor & Other Imaginary Foes
As You Let Me Be Cheetara
Whenever We Played
Thunder,
Thunder,
Thunder Cats… HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Remember
Playing General Hospital
And All My Children
With Our Barbie's…..
When We Grew Tired Of That
We Played School & Dress Up
With Our Beloved
Cabbage Patch Kids

Remember
Our Scrapped Up Knees,

And Endless
Lay Down On The Bed "Kick Fights"
Singing Along To
Punky Brewster
Care Bares
Alvin & The Chipmunks
The Jefferson's &
GOOD TIMES!!!

As We Rushed Home From School To Watch
Woody Wood Pecker,
Different Strokes And
The Facts Of Life

Remember
Whenever Mom Told Us
We Were Going To A Party
We'd Sit By The Radio
Recording All The Songs We Liked
We Would Practice In Our Room For Hours
Making Up Dances
Was The Joy
We Lived By

Abruptly
All The Above Went Away
When I Was in The 5th Grade
You Left Me
You Were My First Heartache

Every time I Played A Game
Watched TV, Danced
Or Listened To The Radio

You Were No Longer Beside Me….

Now When I Played
Thundercats
I No Longer Heard
Your Echoed
Hooooooooo's
Without You
I Felt Out Of Place,
I Didn't Know Where
I Belonged

If I Saw You Today
There Aren't Any Words
That Can Describe How I'd Feel
As I'd Take The Chance
To Unmask My Pain
And Reveal Everything
I Would Never Verbalize
I'd Always Yield

I Tried
But Could Never Apologize,
Whenever I Saw You
Inwardly My Pain
Confused You As
"Leaving Me"

When In Reality
You Were A Child
Who Believed
The Mockery Of A "Fathers" Words
As They Shattered
Your Adolescent Heart
Causing The Rift Between Us….
Forever Scarred

So Many Years
Have Passed Us By
So Many Things
We've Never Gotten To do
As I Remember
You Were My Goddess
I Wanted To Walk, Talk, Dress
And Be Like Everything
That Embodied You

It Took Me Having My Son
To Understand
Searching For Certain "Why's?"
Is Wasted Time
People Are Who They Chose To Be
Until The Day Of Their Demise

As A Mother
I Cannot Fathom
Nor Am I Able To Rationalize
Why A Father Chooses Not To Partake
In Their Child's Life
As They May, One Day
Come Along With Empty Promises
Causing An Innocent Child
Irreversible Strife

But Don't Worry
My Dear Sister
If We're Ever Together
And Come Across
The Bastard
We Can Poke Out
His Mother Fu*king Eyes..

What!!!!
You Know I Had To Throw In Some
"LaToya" Humor…
Otherwise

It Just Wouldn't Be Right

Even If
That Didn't Make You Laugh
This Is My Attempt
To Apologize

As I Patiently Await The Day
To See You
I Truly Wish
I Knew When…..

"NOTHING BUT DEATH CAN KEEP ME FROM IT"

"The Color Purple's" -Nettie & Celie

I Love You

Until We Meet Again……

© LaToya S. C.