Deeply embedded self hatred has several men, not only dating outside of their race - but believing the black woman is their enemy, when they don't see their true reflection when they look in the mirror on a daily basis.
The battle lies inwardly, due to a lack of self awareness & knowledge of self - they fight more harshly then the very entities responsible for institutionalized racism.
When the oppressed become the oppressors.
How does one emerge into this world through the wombs of their black mothers & spend the majority of their lives immersed in activities dismantling, in essence what gave them life?
That's the elephant in the room no one wants to address.
It's conversations that bring discomfort that offer the most insight.
Do you understand your own inferiority complex? Or believe by sleeping with or having children by others, which is the exact opposite of yourself - will fill up the gaping hole in your being...
To understand the actions of other's, what they refuse to acknowledge while being on the shitty end of their stick, of blindness - is, ineffable.
I am dealing with YEARS of conditioning passed down from generation to generation.
And it isn't just the men either.
Self hatred manifests itself differently in women. As they go above & beyond to alter their outwardly appearances attempting to mimic the very females, who if they REALLY paid attention desire to have all the physical attributes they were naturally born with.
An endless cut throat competition, when there are no winners.
If you go into anything not knowing who you are, you already lost.
You are someone else's plaything & they do to you as they please.
There is no respect in controlling others - why they go so hard to attack those in which they can't.
Music = portals
Always inspiring thoughts in a thinker.
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Artist: Royce Da 5'9
Track 15: Perspective Skit
Album: The Allegory
As above, so below.
Before the words above were written, the words below were expressed a few hours prior to a male I hold in high regard.
There are several sides to our thoughts, what we keep within & was is shared with others - in hopes to reach a threshold of understanding....
March 5, 2020 - 2:31am
I need to state the following, not for a response, it is to express it to another living human being.
I don't have the ability to listen or look at Zo Williams because of the color of his eyes.
When excessive force was used on me by a bunch of male officers. A black Sargent with the same color eyes/complexion as zo williams didn't care that I was hurt but to sign a medical waiver stating I didn't want to receive medical attention to protect his colleagues.
A black male was assigned to the duel investigation when sexual trauma resurfaced with Destiny and it was disregarded/closed out.
A black male, when the female that was hurting my daughter was finally arrested magically couldn't contact me for almost 48 hours so she was released.
Whenever I come into work, black men feel the need to antagonize me & make a mockery of my domestic violence history.
A black male that abused me for years has an order of protection against ME. My daughter lives with him and I've been separated from her for 17+ months. To add insult to all his injuries he currently receives more of my salary than I do.
Last but certainly not least, I go to civil court this Friday and can potentially lose the home I've lived in for 11 years because other black males ensured something that could have been easily prevented has gone too far & they REFUSE to stop.
It is a miracle I am not filled with hatred and despise all black men collectively.
When it comes to hardships and repeated physical pain - a black males face is attached to it.
So again, I thank you for sharing - but certain people remind me of the "we must protect black women" EMPTY RHETORIC.
In my life, the black male has caused the most unbearable pain I have ever felt & I cannot bring myself to be subjected to meaningless commentary over the deceased & no one is fighting or helping those that are alive & still breathing.
You're appreciated.
One of my life's greatest reflections to delve into my own way of thinking, is a black male - always inspiring, even when we don't share the same experiences.
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A.ctivates C.onstant E.levation ♂️
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