Life Cannot Fast Forward, Rewind Or Be Erased

How is it possible to endure

 several forms of torture 

psychologically

Be on the receiving end 

of guerrilla warfare 

manipulative tactics 

For

more then 

a year

 Then out of the 

blue 

the opposite suddenly presents itself ?

 Especially during a time 

when the world is experiencing 

a global pandemic

My Uneducated
"Guess"

says:

 Surfaced 

Anger 

Of another's concealed fear

No one or group of individuals
waits this long
 to be of assistance

Especially
When the vulnerability of a child, my daughter

 is at stake


These words:
are to honor
automatic skepticism

My trust has been broken
beyond anyone attempting to offer

 a quick fix

To  whomever believes they can "repair" 

almost 19 months

of unlawful separation

KNOWING

Who I am 

as a woman, mother and law abiding citizen

has been taken for granted

Is insulting
to an inexcusable
injury

What looks like help
isn't always what it seems
 at first glance

Or maybe I am still haunted
by those who have already came in the guise of support
 only to sabotage from the inside out

Even the worst of the worst

prayer's don't take this long
to be answered.

The answer in reality

is my daughter being within my vicinity

instead of me typing these words without her

That is the solution - not this illusion

of being consumed 

by one's own consumption

Message 

form

Divine Guidance

Allow your emotions to at first be heightened 

then simmer down 

when you are more level headed - clarity is obtained

I am a pawn in someone else's

sick, sadistic, calloused heart

 game

I know that much to be true

The  relentless toxicity 

are the individuals who refuse to accept
that they too are a pawn

Grandiose - outwardly persona's
reflect magical thinking 

turned, asinine beliefs

The insatiable need to elevate 

to a higher position 

without putting in any effort besides deception

Operating off inbreed desires 

to skip intricate steps

and levels of understanding 

Of the same board 

we all 

travel upon... 

It is imperative for me to 

Pause

and self reflect

Those who believe they can get something for nothing

is everyone else's fool

to be used 

 I have 

Nothing else to take

or give to the greedy

Who believe

I am a reflection of their

neediness 

My most valuable possession

isn't up for grabs

and must remain intact 

By detaching
Then going back

with knowledge of self 

Ruled by awareness

Not morsels 

given to me 

by those who lack integrity

And have yet
to operate

off merit 

© LaToya S. C. 


See
Where I'm 
Going

I Get To FLY

Humility's Infections

I Just Want My Kids
To Have The Same
P.E.A.C.E.

I'm Blessed With